Monday, April 21, 2014

95- 2001 Independence
I'm 25 years old and sharp. No longer excessively out going and extremely cautious but I am still not quite there [mentally]. No more 40 ounces. I'd buy a 6 packs, or maybe a 22 ounce but that is it. And it wasn't malt liquor. Its Heineken, Guiness Stout, Corona or a Michelob and I'm kissing  the bottle until its warm, pouring the rest out. 

I always had a hooptie during this time [easier to fix]. I was consistently working/hustling. . but it was done aimlessly - without a goal that was connected to establishing a business.

Graduating from the hotels [effiencies], I eventually got an apartment, by myself, though the opposition says differ. They'll say momma got it for me, or she paid the rent, but they're haters/drug addicts.

The opportunity came after a car accident

I had a blue subaru, and thanks to the Lord I got into an accident in it, on Salem and Independence.. It was with a latin brother and at the accident, he said he was wrong to the police. I ended up with $2-3,000. Thank you Atty Land.

I got a couple of outfits paid first and last months rent, on a 1 year lease.

About a $1000 went to a new old car and some gear which came from the first check. [vehicle was totaled]

About $1000 went on the first and last month rent [chiropractor/medical damage]

My Apartment in Norfolk

- 4907 E. Princess Anne Rd. in 96' I got the apartment through GSH Real Estates off of Providence: 1bedroom with additional space connected to the bedroom. 
* in 95'  a lot of time, I was in the ' Breakers Hotel ' and later stayed with Chris, in Oceanview in Norfolk

It was about $400.00 a month. It didn't look good but it was in a decent area. close to downtown the interstate and host of warehouse businesses and the likes .

94-95' Marine deck and coating surfaces: Surface technologies
95-96' l 99-00 Demolition, Asbestos/Lead removal: A&B Abatement
95-96' Landscaping
96-97' Restaurant work [ Orapax ]
97' Commercial roofing
I had a route cleaning restrooms: daycare centers, gas stations, and other businesses.
Temp service employment if needed.

Studios: home and businesses.  " The World " 94-95, " Magnetic Pull " 95', "Lord Ur-ros " were recorded in 3rd Eye Studio.. *" First blood " was recorded in 3rd Eye Studios which relocated to a different location in 1999

Performances: Norfolk State 95-96, Virginia University 96-97. Clubs: The Cave 96-97.. and some other spots. 

Crews: I never liked groups because of the issues that came with them. All problems were based on individuals that were interested in control and or status that was too much like my household, which was the reason why I was hanging in the first place. I liked rapping but I wanted to sell and market my own product. My vision was way different from the people around me. 
I was raised in Virginia Beach, but I relocated to Norfolk because it was cheaper. I hunted the apartment down, checking the area out during the day and  night.. It was great! I met the best people. 

I moved back around the way because  after the 2nd lease was up because things was looking good music wise and I wanted invest money into studio time.

98' The reason I moved back was because I wanted to invest money into studio time because thing were looking great. I was relating with an array of people [which was partially the problem to- no loyalties]. I performed and participated at a couple colleges, a university, and recieved positive feed back from other artists and spectators, attending events. The thing was I wanted something that I could sell in my hands. A tape [back then].
These are older writings that I put together back in 95 to 97. They're mixed with tax folders that came in a later date but if you start the video 2:23 it will get directly into them.
Part - 1 of 2

The second half of some of my writings from 95 to 97
Part -2 of 2

In Part 2 I explained why I returned back to my mother's house in Virginia Beach, from Norfolk, Va. I also go into how I felt at that point. Everything was great in Norfolk. Opportunities were there but I felt I couldn't move the way I needed to accomplish the goals I was aiming for. It's hard paying bills and investing into projects at the same time.

My Goals:
*I wanted to put a project together as an artist.

*I wanted an entertainment/production company

*I wanted to get into film

I needed money to do all of these things.

I needed to move back with family.

Because I felt success was around the corner.

The Issues 
What my definition of success was and ' loyalty '. I didn't want to be a loyal servant/worker. I wanted to be ' free ' to do as I wish. I didn't even want to give orders because I felt [and still feel] whole heartedly, if you aren't paying people for their sevices you aren't the true master. Now, there are stipulations: volunteer workers [college students getting credit for school, street teams], collective or group policies [ groups like Wu-Tang, NWA or bands].. but if you are just a an associate, friend, family member that could be cut at anytime for any reason - pay up! And that was the problem. 

I'm not 

" follower "
" sidekick " 
And I believe before you lead you should first have power, and have a firm understanding of it.

If I took the career test, self test, aptitude test or any type of personality test whether exoteric or esoteric, it would say ' Do your own thang '. I'm there to network.. and 99.9 percent of the time if I went out, people called me to go out there. Very rarely would I call anyone and say, " Pick me up ".  I try to stay out of people's way, because I don't want to hear anybody saying, " He used me "

Part - 1 of 2

Part - 2 of 2

The Problem:
The debt that came immediately; transportation:  car issues, poor bus lines [effecting payment of the debt]; the environment: situation [the home environment now had a brother that came home from penitentuary and my mother's husband whom worked out of states for several years before I moved out before it was just her and I], location [the mentality of the people in Norfolk and Virginia Beach are very different, especially on the side of town where I was at].

Excuse the lil rant [below - Part 1 of 3]. I can't keep editing and re-recordings. It's going to have to fly. I wasn't focus either, but here I explain how after I moved back to Virginia Beach and re-connected with the right people I did a lil something even though I took some hard blows economically.. 

98' - construction/restaurant - Protemp[temp service], National Abatement *again - [demolition work] & Pizza Hut - also I relocated[rented] twice with 2 different associates: one was suppose to have rented a room ended up on couch [video games being plauyed alll night; the other was with a young lady that was convinced I was crazy].. I stopped getting rides to the job[ after her new man moved in, which came from the other house] with National Abatement. From what I heard, I was only there because her car got shot up anyway. Moved back! Placed app into Pizza Hut delivery in the cut worked couple months put 2 weeks in went to Locco Streetwear with Rob.

* Also at this time I put together 2 songs and put them on music sites.

' First Blood ' [produced  and mixed by PK for 3rd Eye Studio] and ' Lord Ur-ros ' [recorded in 3rd eye in 97' for the Spot Music project for 19th, I got it mixed at Woodhouse Av Inc., It was also remixed for " Pyschotic Philosix " which by far was the best version]

I wanted the experience putting pieces together in the big studio [paying money - feeling like I'm a business man]. I wasn't interested in selling the work because I knew there were uncleared samples. I just wanted to move forward. 
It would be on for the world to see and respond to.

99' - Apple Bee's [waiting tables]; Cavalier [waiting tables and room service].. *  [summer] This is when I got in the fender bender[foot slid off of the brakes at a red light]; ' Obstruction of justice ' [we were doing music, someone  knocked on the door and all I seen was 2 arms pulling someone out of the house, it just so happened to be the cops]; DUI [Went out on 2pacs birthday/.108 3.5- 4 beers]- All during the summer.

*Old Fine [restitution] came in 3-99 $ 7-800

* 1998 returned home to bill from the courts
* 98' $700-800 from a 1990 court case
* 1999 fender bender sued for $2-3000
* 1999 DUI fines[court], classes, no insurance fine from DMV.. forgot but it was high!
* 1999 Obstruction of justice $160 plus
Late 1998-99' got in touch with paternal family 
* 2000 Locco clothing store
* 2ooo Locco Compilation

I feel I was dealing with the BEST on all levels BUT.. I have my own vision. 
I'm a natural trailblazer/entrepreneur.
Rob9 of Self Pro was working on another CD compilation called ' Versatility ' and asked me if I wanted to be on that and I was like " I'm ok . Let the other brothers rock it " because niggaz were fighting for shine and honestly I didn't want it '  
I really didn't want to be on the first one compilations ' Psychotic Philosix ' because we recorded the song I had on the project about 2 years back. I  felt the song didn't fit the project and there were clicks in it [on the violin  sample]. I also felt  it was  too monotone.  I felt It could've been edited  [produced] better and also I was getting on the business tip, basically I wanted to be paid and it was their song, copyrights, something. 
Rob was like we could make another one but I wasn't interested in recording anything.
wanted to be PAID for songs. 
They felt since they had most of the connections, and resources and everybody was going to get free promotion because they attended fashion shows..., because him and Eric hbad worked for a strong independent clothing line and were connected to the right people. Now, if I had a project or product to promote, a brand, I would have felt what he was saying but I didn't, so it was pointless to me. If I had my own strong sources,  connections: family, it would have been cool too. I didn't want to shine if the right people weren't around me. I'm trying play the wall,  like everyone else. 
There was too much hating going on for me to' rock ' a mic for free. You're going to have to pay me for that shit and I gotta be powerful and supple and surrounded by my people not yours. Even though, I was treated extremely well on all levels: free shows, access to important people, respect due to association but I still needed papper, and to be seen as an entrepreneur not an artist.  I felt the extra was just that. It's kind of like a job having cook outs and parties every weekend then saying ' I'm taking it out of your check '. Bump the cook out. I don't care if Prince was there every weekend, I'd rather have the check.  

needed my own identity: Lord Ur-ros as an artist and  my own entertainment company for starters.. I desired my own alliances, people that dealt with me firsthand.  They had plenty high caliber artists in their midst, hungry for the opportunity to show their skills and a lot of them were fresh talent, willing to do things for free, which decreased my value - as they grew. So I stepped out of their way while they were still moving up [fasst].

 dudes were extremely tight! 
And the time period I associated with them was extremely profitable even if money wasn't made:
Rob of Self Pro Productions worked with me at Locco Streetwear [set me up with the job at Locco/side jobs], through the years[94 to that point]. He was the one that did most of  the production with my music.  He was the President or Vice President for Frequency Magazine [Eric being the CEO/Owner whom was a graphic designer]  which business office was in 12 Monkeys Studio. They were partners with the person that had 12 Monkeys and were well connected.
Eric was the graphic designer for Locco Streetwear and for the frequency magazine
Blount  who introduced me to the circle] 'aka Shinzu ' was the people's champ, had heavy street influence with the people and artists. He had 'Word of mouth ',  Hosted events and stuff. He was a great artist himself. His work was loaded with substance.  We butted heads a lot because we both had strong personalities but ' Iron sharpens iron. ' 
He grew/expanded as quickly as Rob and Eric.
Though in the end Eric was the most impressive to me business wise. The others dealt directly with artists on an entertainment level which is harder to reap rewards in my opinion. By far that circle had the most impressive network system locally.  

Word of Mouth Location - A

Word of Mouth Location -B
Part - 1 of 2

Late 99' 00' Plot
I had the charges [ DUI, The fender Bender, obstruction of justice, which was really an interference with arrest but nobody was arrested so it becames an ' Obstruction of justice ' charge ]..  the year started off good but turned into a nightmare.
my older brother Jerry some how cames into the picture. I get his #, call him and ask him prices for beats and or production. He says we could work something out with copryrights or something. So I don't have to pay him any money. 
I still had the vehicle at the time but I knew  soon I wasn't going to be driving. Rob9 had the magazine going. I figured, I could sell the car and use the money to produce a project,  and put it in his magazine, and I  could in exchange  take his magazine to the DC area where Jerry was at. Rob9 wasn't interested. He was having problems getting people to circulate locally. He was like if I was under his managementitwould be a different story.
That sounded damn good because he had the best connections locally but I didn't want to be an artist really. I wanted the entertaiment company and he had a lot of people interested in him.
So I had to go without him, but that was a damn go idea [And that's what I wanted to do, get paid from ideas.]
So I sold the car for $750 and bought a ticket to DC.

It was nice out there. The people were cool but I'm all about business. I'm thinking -  in & out.
I think I was there 4 days [too many]. I wanted to leave in 2 days. My brother [Jerry] was waiting for a particular beat machine though they had some equipment. He showed me the area and his people.

When I went to DC, the dumb shh tried to follow
One of my brother's associates wanted some weed  and he was like ride with me. I said ' ok.. '
[prior to this incident, I went out with them and we got into some play time - they had strippers giving lap dancing and such. I grab the mic one night and rocked it with a few of his people. It was fun] 
I was beginning to feel comfortable out there. So as we were riding. He was pointing things out, schooling me to how they hussle out there. Pointing at people you'd think were everyday citizen/construction workers saying ' hustlers! ' I was like they fronting that hard ?
We got to where he was trying to go.. and from no where. The Army National Guard jumped out on us and got his ass. Took him away! The main dude [Army National Guard soldier], a brother asked me for my ID, seen I wasn't from the area, asked me my story [ I told him I was in National Guard back in the day ].. Looked at my ID and seen I had the  same birthday as his and told me " I'ma let you go because we got the same birth-date.  " Finally some good luck. I was sitting in the car and the people in the hood were very upset - shooting with their hands. I guess they thought we were informants. Dude I road with was yelling back at them saying " We aint narks "
The National Guard soldier, told me to leave [I guess they were setting up for the next bust and I drove off and some how found my way back  to their crib, called my brother so he could get him out. Dude was mad that I left.. and my brother and the other room mate was upset, he took me out there.. It  cooled down. 

We finally recorded something, got into an argument and I left with nothing.

The next day I left back to the beach - Virginia Beach

All we had to do was find an instrumental I was comfortable with put it down on a track, then I record my vocals on a separate track to the instrumental, then he delete the instrumental, then he build another beat over the vocal track while I'm there or gone [with the little money I had left], then he mix it, then send it to me in the mailbox.

Part - 2 of 2

The problems I was facing revolved around control. If they like Dre they want me to play Snoop; If they liked RZA, they want you to play Meth or ODB. I wanted ' fool control ' over every aspect of my career. I would be wrong if I was trying to go mainstream but I wasn't. 

I'm like " look , I'm trying to do businessthen split. " 

At the time technology wasn't in the picture. When technology came into the picture, everything changed because you could get a beat right off of the computer. There was a saying by producers, 
" There's a Million rappers out there ". 
Well after the computer came into the picture artists would say, 
" There's a Million beatmakers/producers out there. "

The competition heightened for everybody. Me  and my brother got into an argument because he wanted me to take a copy with me and I said no..

When I returned, I was more focused then ever. I figured bump it, I'm going to have to get my own equipment.
00' - Locco Streetwear - Store Shipping;
The year 2000 was my 7th strongest year financially between the years of 1995 and 2005' I didn't get all of my tax forms though. And it was without a drivers license! beating every year prior to it besides 96 and 97' which were the years I had my own apartment with a car. And it was all Temp services on a raggedy bus line.

2001 is when I decided to get a credit card because if I am going to be succesful I am going to need credit. Niggaz aint trying to give you nothing: credit, money, unless they have to because it's power but the system have to and will, and they did and I became a changed man.

Friday, December 16, 2011

Genesis 1:1 "The Fall"

Space holds measurements; engulfs movements..

Points connect; rhythms collide with what was..

Big Bang, new beginnings, vibes


Matters spiral downward toward a new


Enter Phaze VI, authoring scripts, learning  burning

within concerns, conflict.

No time to be careless, memories blurry..

Intoxicants good wine, sweet soma..

Aroma key, I remember well, rebel
remember me, mutual.

I see, all seeing..and I always will believe,
in He.

Though out all eternity.

Written By Myth-Ra Raised aka Lord Ur-ros